Already... post number two???

Hahaha... yes, I am brimming with emotions and although I just started this blog, I have one more thing to say already about this journey. :)

I heard a song a while ago that has really inspired me.  It is sung by JJ Heller and was written by Daniel Ash, Kevin Haskins, and  David J. Haskins, and it is called "Love Me."  When I first heard it on the radio in the car, it spoke to my heart and brought tears to my eyes, because adopting an older child is really scary sometimes.

Our daughter has lived a life totally without us for six years, and has experienced things we don't know about and will only find out about if she can remember and is able to tell us.  We anticipate seeking professional help for bonding, processing painful memories and realities of her life, and helping us to move forward with her into healthiness.

But this song expresses in simple terms what I want to do for Lily.  I want to love her for who she is.  After all this time waiting for a daughter, I know I will be tempted to wish she would conform to my imagined ideal, but I have learned with my boys that as a parent, you get these little creatures who have their own temperaments and strengths and weaknesses, and you get to be part of the process of guiding and shaping, but ultimately, you choose to let go of your expectations and love them for who they are.  

I want to do this for Lily.  And to the moms reading this... although it's silly, I may need to be reminded me of this if she does something as simple as refusing to wear all of the pretty little girl clothes I have gotten for her and prefers hand-me-down jeans from Drew!  hahaha

OK, so here's the song already... :)

She cries in the corner where nobody sees 
She's the kid with the story no one would believe
She prays every night, "Dear God, won't you please... 
Could you send someone here who will love me?"

Who will love me for me
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me
'Cause nobody has shown me what love,
What love really means.